MY LITTLE HELPER

Jayme has always been a very special little girl. Right from the minute we met, I knew she was delicate, quiet and sensitive. She clung to me and basically hasn't let go! LOL At 18 months old, she started helping me empty the dishwasher...she just wanted to be with Mommy. You gotta love that!

Now at 3, she sets the table, gets glasses of water for her Daddy (cause he's always so sirsty), folds face cloths and socks like a champ, pushes the appropriate buttons on several appliances, etc. Now before you call the CAS on me, this isn't forced labour...she just likes to help!

So yesterday while I was getting dinner started, she wanted to "make the carrots". Ohhhh too funny. We ended up peeling many more carrots than usual....almost 2 lbs worth to get 4 little servings. She started with just peeling then she ended up whittling the thing....trying to get it

"fmooth".

Look at that concentration:

Now she's getting the hang of it:

Whittled flat:

I NEED...

....laying hens, some goats, black angus on the hoof, wheat in the field, 100 meat birds, and a jersey cow.

As you know we've been switching Rylee (and of course us) to a better organic way of eating. And until I have that list of "needs" on my own farm, we will pay:

$10.99 for 3L of organic milk
$5.99 for a dozen free range organic eggs
I won't scare you with the meat prices...

I have ordered up some cheese making supplies which should be here in the next couple of weeks. I can't wait! Of course that all started because I read the Omnivore's Dilemma, and The Unhealthy Truth, and found THIS BLOG. I read it right from the beginning. Incredible! Just when I thought buying wheat and grinding it yourself was a big deal, Kat, one ups me and grows her own wheat. She's also kicked Juan Valdez to the curb....yeah, she grows her own coffee too! Love it!!! Go and check the blog out...I think you're going to really like it.

On another note, I think I'm going through a mid-life crises. Not the normal symptoms of heightened shoe shopping or husband changes. No, I find myself daydreaming about farm tractors, planting crops and making artisan cheese from my Nigerian dwarfs. (Janice, don't be concerned...they're goats.) So, be warned, my 4 loyal followers....there are changes coming....big changes. And if you happen to see pictures of me with ankle length denim dresses and my hair covered...oh and maybe in rubber boots too, don't stop reading here. It's still me! Just figuring out my life and where I'm supposed to be heading....okay? Okay!

PRETTY GOOD WEEK

We had a pretty good week around here last week. Grandma was here for awhile so I got "out" of the house A.L.O.N.E. Hopped in my truck with the tunes just a blastin'....singing my little heart out. Sounding a little like Dolly with a bit of Trace Adkins mixed in for good measure. LOL

First stop - shoe shopping. I had my eye on a strappy little number with a 3" heel. ROFL In another life maybe...

Actually, I hit the hardware store....pockets loaded with gift cards that needed redeeming. I bought 4 more cases of canning jars, new oven mitts, some mini bread pans, cheese cloth, big honkin' cheese grater and one of those stick blender thingies so I can puree soups right in the pot. 1 1/2 hrs later, I was back in the yard (still singing), done with my adventure and ready to pull the draw bridge back up.

The weather was mighty fine here all week too. Could NOT get the kids off the swings!!

Friday night we took the girls to a farm to JUST HAVE A LOOK.....lol

Introducing Jasmine and Kailyn:

Look at those little faces....aren't they sweet?! They can come home in 11 sleeps! I can't wait....I mean, the kids can't wait. hehe

BOOKS, BOVINE, AND BLOOD SPOTS

On Day 1 of what we're now calling Ry's little miracle, a stack of books came in the mail. Big Daddy is always ordering from Chapters and Amazon. Happily, one of the books was a present for me - The Unhealthy Truth: How our food is making us sick and what we can do about it - by Robyn O'Brien. To this day, Big Daddy has no idea why he ordered it....he just did. Just another part of this mystery/miracle.

I read through the first 3 chapters....then started again! This was definitely not going to be a run-of-the-mill book. This was a "destroy with a pink highlighter" kind of book! LOL This book was good...really good...and it will make you mad. Mad at the mega companies who make the sick rules and back room deals surrounding our food supply. It was an eye-opener!! We immediately switched to organic milk. It was a small step...but a step in the right direction. It also got me to thinking about foods that Rylee was consuming....did she have an allergy to something or maybe just a sensitivity? Could it have been part of her "little miracle"? The only change in food that occurred during that week was orange juice. She drank tons of orange juice but that week, for some reason, she didn't have a drop. She was all about water and milk. Could that have been part of this mystery?

The second book that I highly recommend is Kenneth Bock, MD. Healing the New Childhood Epidemics: Autism, ADHD, Asthma and Allergies. I'm afraid I destroyed this one too with my trusty pink highlighter! LOL We searched for organic beef and started Rylee on a better vitamin program after this book.

The 3rd book that absolutely everyone should read is - The Omnivore's Dilemma. This book is excellent! It will make you mad. It will make you sick! It will make you want to buy everything organic. Then it will make you want to be a farmer so you can raise and grow your own unadulterated food. Then it will make your husband wonder why on earth he ever bought the book for you in the first place. LOL

BOVINE:
We have a quarter beef on order. It's been grass-fed. It has NOT been injected with hormones or antibiotics. Not much need to do that sort of thing because he's been healthy - in the fresh air, eating food he was meant to eat. And the best part....we saw where he was born and raised. We met the farmers who kept him. Very important!

BLOOD SPOTS:
Now if the 3 book recommendations haven't swayed you to change things, perhaps this little story will. This past weekend I cooked up the last beef roast I had in the freezer. I had it in the crock pot all day, and it was smelling mighty fine by supper time. Half way through Big Daddy's slicing, he came across this small egg sized pit of blood. You could actually see where something (I'm guessing a needle) had probed the beef and left this disgusting spot!

Yeah, we ordered pizza...

I don't want you to leave here all sick and disgusted, so I'll leave you with a funny. I was knee deep in the Omnivore's Dilemma when Jayme (3) asked me what I was reading. When I told her it was about cows, she says "ohhhhh cows, my favourite." "I'm going to reach under him and turn on his taps so I can get a drink for me and Rylee." LOL

WHERE DO I BEGIN...

I've been absent. Yeah, I know...but I have a lot on my plate these days. I've wanted to write about what was happening here, really I have, but I just didn't know where to begin.

I want to make one thing clear before I start this....my purpose in sharing our struggles is to give other moms dealing with Autism some shred of hope. Okay?

In January, Rylee's behaviour took a turn for the worse! She was defiant beyond words...screaming her dislike for everything and everyone. She would tell me several times a day that she didn't want to be part of this family and certainly didn't want me to be her mom. She did NOT want to be a girl anymore either. Her tantrums, several times a day, were outrageous and out of control. And before you say, oh all kids go through a few tantrums in their day....uh yeah, witness an Autistic kid's tantrum first hand and then we'll talk! The best way to describe her is primal. In that moment, she is all animal, non-thinking, just reacting! And mean!! She would just strike out at anyone who got in her way. J would try to hug or kiss her to make her feel better and Ry would just kick, push or scratch back! We were beginning to fear for J's safety...it was getting that bad!

By the third week in January, we were in desperation mode....a family in crisis - sleep deprived, upset, hurt. It was time for medication. I called the Paediatrician for help! Her assistant told me that because we hadn't seen the Dr. for 18 months, we'd have to go through our regular Dr. to get another referral...that would take weeks...and frankly, we didn't have weeks! We just couldn't go on like this! I'm afraid I lost it completely on the phone...I was crying and desperate. She took pity on me and scheduled an appt. Finally, some hope.

Well, the appt didn't go as planned. LOL Instead of drugs, the Dr. instructed us to give Ry Melatonin to help her sleep. She also felt that if we gave her a daily laxative, it would alleviate some of her problems. She set another appt for 4 weeks out but I could call at any time if I felt we needed to. I gotta tell you, I was not exactly on board with this so-called solution. We had tried Melatonin before and it just didn't work for her.

Well, wouldn't yah know it...the melatonin did work this time! Yeehaw! And we actually got her moved into her own room to sleep. Baby steps. Her sleep habits improved but her meanness was still in full force. I had to schedule another appt. This time, Ry stayed home so I could really talk with the Dr. She agreed that Rylee had some other issues and was quite the complex little girl. Yes, she had Autism, but she was very high on the ADHD scale. Then there was the whole abandoned/mentally abused part of her past that was always just under the surface. I cried during this appt....sad for us as a family and definitely sad for this 6 year old little girl who was born on the other side of the world, abandoned and left to languish in an orphanage. She would spend endless hours alone in her crib, sick and crying.....but no one came to help. The Dr. said she will probably never get over that!! And I cry some more..... Then she told me something that I will carry with me the rest of my days....she said that I might not be able to mother her and that Rylee needed me to be her therapist first and foremost!

Well, we talked about all of the options in medications that might help her....and all of the side-effects!! Just wild! We agreed on a small dose of Resperidone but first we'd need to do some blood work. So, off I went with a prescription for a powerful drug that should lessen Ry's aggression, a request for blood tests at the lab, and a prescription for Ativan to help Rylee get through the bloodwork. That was Tuesday Feb 9.


On Wednesday February 10, we witnessed a miracle! Big Daddy and I took Ry in for her bloodwork - yes all jacked up on Ativan - and she did great!! She was a totally different little girl for the rest of the day. Just after supper, she was still feeling the effects of that pill, which she shouldn't have. I found her at the top of the stairs dancing with her coat....she was hallucinating and singing to her "partner". It was a little scary. I coaxed her into her pj's in between bouts of falling to the floor in a heap, crying and babbling incoherently. She crawled into her bed by 6:30 and the mean and aggressive Rylee never came back!!

We're still not 100% sure what happened. We have a few theories that I'll share with you later, but in the meantime, our old Ry is back!!! She is happy, healthy and in no need of Resperidone.